June 9th

Clever Clogs
Once upon a time there was a clever clogs and her name was you
I like boys who wear glasses



Clever Clogs?? I don't know about that. I'm traditionally clever (good grades at school, graduated university, blah, blah, blah) but I'm just me. Does having a higher IQ/better education make me smarter?

When I look at some of the choices I've made it definately does not.
When I look at others around me that have a more ordered and peaceful life it definately does not.
When I think about the things I could have achieved and the things I am doing now it definately does not.

On the other hand - I have spent the last fifteen years being able to home with my children which is a blessing, although it was never what I expected I would do with my life. And my kids seem to be growing up ok - so maybe I am a clever clogs after all...

Actually, ask me in another ten years or so when they are all grown and I'll let you know how it worked out.

June 8th

Smiling
Sweet dizzy girl you make me always smiling
I like gingerbread and tap dancing



When I'm tired or miserable this girl grins at me and tells me I have to smile otherwise she'll Do The Ballerina! Then she balances (usually badly) on her right leg whilst holding the other up behind her, with her right arm pointing forwards and a stupid grin on her face. It never fails to make me laugh.

And she really can't sulk. When she tries all we have to do is look at her and chant 'There's a smile under there' and she grins. She hates the fact that she does it but she grins and her sulk is gone. Long may it last!

Gingerbread - usually looks wonderful but is almost always disappointing when you get to eat it.
Tap dancing - uurrgghhhhh. Makes my skin crawl (even when it's not done by precocious little kids in too much make-up).

June 7th

Higgledy Piggledy
Somedays when life is quite higgledy-piggledy then you are the only person who can help
I like cheese on toast and palates



My life is completely higgledy-piggledy at the moment. I suspect it will be for a while to come. I'm not a great homemaker and I hate schedules and routines so I'm pretty bad at imposing them on my family. It's allowed my girls to grow up as very individual people with strong personalities and a good sense of their own selves but it's terrible for the more mundane things like finding a enough teaspooons or a matching pair of socks on a Sunday!

I dream of having a beautiful ordered home like the ones you see on TV (or the ones I see working - I'm an estate agent in a reasonably posh area so almost all the houses I visit are like showhomes). However, my total disregard for any sort of conformity lead me to choose a boat as our home. Not only that but I insisted on one that had been sunk and needed restoration. Seemed like a great idea when I only had 2 preschool kids but now here we are with chaos on all sides and six lives going on inside our small half-finished home. Saying that - I don't really want to live anywhere else and when Him Indoors has suggested moving to a house I've found myself despondant at the mere thought of it. However, if anyone has a spare million or so to buy the barn conversion I was showing on Saturday....

Oh - and the guy in the doll. That'd be Him Indoors! Sometimes I feel we're not as close as we should be. I miss the times when we were just the two of us, talking and laughing. Now we hardly ever managed 'just the two of us' except at bedtimes. The most important time of my days at the moment are first thing in the morning when I can reach out to touch him as he still sleeps, and last thing at night when I can curl up againt him and relax because I'm realy, truly home.

Cheese on toast - yummy! Especially with sweet chilli sauce under the cheese.
Palates (pilates?) - palates have never really entered my consciousness in any way. Pilates seems like a good idea. Maybe I'll try it sometime.

June 6th

Soul
Your soul is a good one, i know when it shines in your eyes
I like motorbikes


eye image by christophe huet - phenomenally talented digital alteration artist

If my soul could shine out through my eyes I hope it would look like this. Inside I feel all young and sparkly and full of hope. On the outside I feel old and saggy and tired. I keep telling myself that life will quieten down and the sparkly me will have time and energy to play agin. Hope that day comes soon.....

I miss motorbikes. A long time ago in another time and place I was good friends with a few beautiful bikes and one beautiful biker. They looked after me and let me have fun. I miss the freedom of those times occasionally but that was then.

And this is now.

June 5th

Lovely Day
We lie on our backs watching the clouds. Our lovely day
I like old black and white movies, travelling to far off lands



I'm possibly the only person in the world that doesn't like old black and white movies. I just don't have the patience for them.

Travelling to far off lands is something I'd love to do, something that has always fascinted me. I've seen most of Europe but nothing any further away. One day when the kids have left home, when my days aren't so full and my bank balance isn't so empty, I'll make sure I get to visit as much of the world as I possibly can. The only thing is I don't want to be a tourist, an outsider looking in. I want to see how other people really live, how other cultures deal with the world and to go to places where other people aren't.

Until then I'll be contented (reasonably) with the beauty I can find in this little country of ours.

Oh - and the clouds...
There's one that looks like a rather cute dinosaur grannie with a bonnet on looking through our roof hatch right now :)

June 4th

Dizzy
Counting the stars brings dizzy and laughing
I like knitting and techno



I love being dizzy! I love spinning around like a kid until I fall over (preferably not on the roof of the boat) and I love rollercoasters as long as they are very fast and/or very twisty. Thing thing I want more than anything else in the world - the first thing I would buy if I ever won the lottery, would be a freefall parachute licence. That is without a doubt the most wonderful and awesome thing I have ever done - but I know I would spend all my time up there if I could.

Knitting - my way to de-stress as it takes up just enough of my mind to stop me going over and over things when they are bothering me. And have you seen the gorgeous yarns out there - my yarn stash is so much bigger and more strokeable than my scrapping stash.

Techno - Are you joking? Noise for the sake of noise. guess I must be getting old - he he :)

June 3rd

Momiji Dolls Week
Chatting
Your chatting with me under the sky makes me always smiling
I like disco and thunderstorms



I never stop talking! Put me with friends or anyone that I feel comfortable with andI'll chat and chat for hours. And there is nothing better than catching up with and old friend that you've not seen for ages. This weekend I was lucky enough to be able to do just that - my Mum's wedding brought together friends and family that I see sp rarely - some that I've not sen for years and years. It was so good to meet up and catch up - I MUST make sure that we don't lose touch again.

Discos - well, I love dancing but I don't think the music I like dancing too would ever be called 'disco'.

Thunderstorms - adore them! I love to stand out and feel the power of them, the rain pounding on the skin of my up-turned face, the lightening flashing, the thunder rumbling around and the winds tugging at my clothes as I stand and enjoy the moment. One of my favourite memories is of being in a campsite in Switzerland in when three thunderstorms converged from different valleys and met at the lake. My Grandad wouldn't let me go outside to be with the storms but watching through the window of the caravan was almost as good :)